wake me up when september and october end

october came and went without any blogposts...this unfortunately means that i will fail to achieve the arbitrary goal i'd had in my head of having at least one blogpost per calendar month in 2026. i also only managed one blogpost in september, and that wasn't even much of a blogpost: it was purely so that i'd have at least one post that month. 

this extended break was a result of two things: 1. the incredibly difficult loss of a very close loved one, which i didn't (and still don't really) want to talk about 2. the beginning of an entirely new life: i'm pregnant! 

it's quite hard to blog when the two biggest things in your life (which are affecting all other things) are not things you'd like to discuss publicly. 

so anyway, here i am, making at least one blogpost in the calendar month of november 2026. i don't know what will happen going forward, but i do think keeping this blog alive at whatever frequency i'm able will be a good thing for me. i feel better (more creative, more productive) when i have a regular outlet for my thoughts (in addition to twitter, which is helpful for smaller thoughts). 

i do have my hands full already, though. and that's a good thing! i'm proud that i managed to hit 100 blogposts in the first few months of this year. i'm okay with writing/blogging now taking more of a backseat as i focus on other things in my life: working for vibecamp, attending my swedish class, and keeping up with the new podcast my husband and i made in august.