pre-show nerves

it's 2:53pm (or 14:53, if you will—more on that some other time) and i have to leave in a little over half an hour. call-time for the fashion show tonight is 4pm and it's half an hour away. 

today's a gym day. we went early so i could still make it to the show on time. i got home and showered, which i usually do the night before a show, so i can apply lotion without worrying it'll get on the garments. i foolishly plucked my bikini line right after my shower—hair removal is definitely a night-before activity, not hours-before-the-show. i only did it in case i'm wearing a gown with a slit tonight, but now my bikini line is dotted with red, so i hope i don't have a slit after all. 

and yes, you heard that right. i have no idea what i'm wearing tonight. that's one aspect of modeling that might surprise people the most—how often there's no pre-show fitting, and instead we just show up and they throw something on us and hope it fits. designers that operate like that are thus incentivized to work with the same models more than once (and indeed i have worked with this designer twice before), since they know they'll have garments that fit them. but i digress. 

it's an unfortunate truth that my pre-show nerves tend to throttle my appetite, because ideally i'd eat enough during the day that i can make it through pre-show and the show without getting a headache from lack of food. it's a toss-up whether there will be any food or beverages for us backstage, and especially rare that it's something approaching a full meal rather than just snacks—though one memorable time, there was full barbecue catering backstage, with the organizers insisting, "this ain't victoria's secret; eat up!" 

i don't really know what to expect tonight, but i'm used to that. i've packed my model bag with everything i anticipate possibly needing, including makeup, jewelry, and even a braid of fake hair in case there's no hair stylist there and i need to make my hair look nice in a pinch. 

the one thing i might be lacking is a nude thong, which i ordered last minute on amazon, but might have to leave before it gets delivered. 

wish me luck!