what's stopping me from writing more?

i can just publish whatever i want. i really do much better when i go for volume, so why don't i? 

this will be my third post today. feels enlivening. is that a word? idk. 

one nice thing about multiple posts in one day is it really lowers the stakes for each individual post. who cares if one is super short, i wrote three in total! 

there are so many things i want to talk about. i realized the other day if i don't try to capture them, then maybe i never will. which in some moments can feel heartening and motivating, because all i have to do is capture them, even imperfectly! but in other moments it can feel demoralizing and frustrating, because if i don't capture them now, then maybe they'll be gone forever—that's a lot of pressure. 

on the other hand, i've often had the thought (heh) that a thought is worth capturing if it comes to you more than once. or rather, any thought worth capturing will come to you more than once. or rather, don't worry your pretty little mind about any one certain instance of a thought, because if it's worth its salt, it will come back to you and you will have another opportunity to capture it. 

as i wrote my previous post about the gym, i found myself thinking, "why am i even writing this? who cares? it's probably not even helping me!" 

but also, any reps i get of describing things and working through my thoughts are valid reps. describing things that happen in the gym is actually not that easy, and now i gave myself a chance to work on it, and that is beneficial even if i don't specialize in describing things at the gym. 

ok, i'm hungry! my lovely fiancé made dinner, and i smell it wafting in from the kitchen. bye for now!